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As the dog seemed to have no scent of anything, Steenie, after
considering for a moment what he must do, began to walk in a spiral,
beginning from the door, with the house for the centre. He had thus got
out of the little valley on to the open hill, and the wind had begun to
threaten reawaking, when Snootie, who was a little way to one side of
him, stopped short, and began scratching like a fury in the snow.
Steenie ran to him, and dropped on his knees to help him: he had
already got a part of something clear! It was the arm of a woman. So
deep was the snow over her, that the cry he and the dog had heard,
could not surely have been uttered by her! He was gently clearing the
snow from the head, and the snow-like features were vaguely emerging,
when the wind gave a wild howl, the night grew dark again, and in
bellowing blackness the death-silent snow was upon them. But in a
moment or two more, with Snootie's vigorous aid, he had drawn the body
of a slight, delicately formed woman out of it's cold, white mould.
Somehow, with difficulty, he got it on his back, the only way he could
carry it, and staggered away with it toward his house. Thus laden, he
might never have found it, near as it was, for he was not very strong,
and the ground was very rough as well as a little deep in snow, but
they had left such a recent track that the guidance of the dog was
sure. The wise creature did not, however, follow the long track, but
led pretty straight across the spiral for the hut.

The body grew heavy on poor Steenie's back, and the cold of it came
through to his spine. It was so cold that it must be a dead thing, he
thought. His breathing grew very short, compelling him, several times,
to stop and rest. His legs became insensible under him, and his feet
got heavier and heavier in the snow-filled, entangling, impeding
heather.

What if it were Phemy! he thought as he struggled on. Then he would
have the beautiful thing all to himself! But this was a dead thing, he
feared--only a thing, and no woman at all! Of course it couldn't be
Phemy! She was at home, asleep in her father's house! He had always
shrunk from death; even a dead mouse he could not touch without a
shudder; but this was a woman, and might come alive! It belonged to the
bonny man, anyhow, and he would stay out with it all night rather than
have it lie there alone in the snow! He would not be afraid of her: he
was nearly dead himself, and the dead were not afraid of the dead! She
had only put off her shoes! But she might be alive, and he must get her
into the house! He would like to put off his feet, but most people
would rather keep them on, and he must try to keep hers on for her!

With fast failing energy he reached the door, staggered in, dropped his
burden gently on his own soft heather-bed, and fell exhausted. He lay
but a moment, came to himself, rose, and looked at the lovely thing he
had laboured to redeem from 'cold obstruction.' It lay just as it had
fallen from his back, its face uppermost: it _was_ Phemy!

For a moment his blood seemed to stand still; then all the divine
senses of the half-witted returned to him. There was no time to be
sorrowful over her: he must save the life that might yet be in that
frozen form! He had nothing in the house except warmth, but warmth more
than aught else was what the cold thing needed! With trembling hands he
took off her half-thawed clothes, laid her in the thick blankets of his
bed, and covered her with every woollen thing in the hut. Then he made
up a large fire, in the hope that some of its heat might find her.

She showed no sign of life. Her eyes were fast shut: those who die of
cold only sleep into a deeper sleep. Not a trace of suffering was to be
seen on her countenance. Death alone, pure, calm, cold, and sweet, was
there. But Steenie had never seen Death, and there was room for him to
doubt and hope. He laid one fold of a blanket over the lovely white
face, as he had seen a mother do with a sleeping infant, called his
dog, made him lie down on her feet, and told him to watch; then turned
away, and went to the door. As he passed the fire, he coughed and grew
faint, but recovering himself, picked up his fallen stick, and set out
for Corbyknowe and Kirsty. Once more the wind had ceased, but the snow
was yet falling.

CHAPTER XXIII

THE STORM AGAIN

Kirsty woke suddenly out of a deep, dreamless sleep. A white face was
bending over her--Steenie's--whiter than ever Kirsty had seen it. He
was panting, and his eyes were huge. She started up.

'Come; come!' was all he was able to say.

'What's the metter, Steenie?' she gasped. For a quarter of a minute he
stood panting, unable to speak.

'I'm no thinkin onything's gane wrong,' he faltered at length with an
effort, recovering breath and speech a little. 'The bonny man--'

He burst into tears and turned his head away. A vision of the white,
lovely, motionless thing, whose hand had fallen from his like a lump of
lead, lying alone at the top of the Horn, with the dog on her feet, had
overwhelmed him suddenly.

Kirsty was sore distressed. She dreaded the worst when she saw him thus
lose the self-restraint hitherto so remarkable in him. She leaned from
her bed, threw her arms round him, and drew him to her, kneeled, laid
his head on her bosom, and wept as she had never known him weep.

'I'll tak care o' ye, Steenie, my man!' she murmured. 'Fear ye
naething.'

It is amazing how much, in the strength of its own divinity, love will
dare promise!

'Ay, Kirsty, I ken ye wull, but it's no me!' said Steenie.

Thereupon he gave a brief, lucid account of what had occurred in the
night.

'And noo 'at I hae telt ye,' he added, 'it luiks a' sae strange 'at
maybe I hae been but dreamin, efter a'! But it maun be true, for that
maun hae been what the angels cam cryin upo' me for. I'm thinkin they
wud hae broucht me straucht til her themsels--they maistly gang aboot
in twas, as whan they gaed and waukent the bonny man--gien it hadna
been 'at the guid collie was aiqual to that!'

Kirsty told him to go and rouse the kitchen fire, and she would be with
him in a minute. She sprang out of bed, and dressed as fast as she
could, thinking what she had best take with her. 'The puir lassie,' she
said to herself, 'may be growin warm, and sleepin deith awa; and by the
time we win there she'll be needin something, like the lassie 'at the
Lord liftit!' But in her heart she had little hope: it would be a sad
day for the schoolmaster.

She went to her father and mother's room, found them awake, and told
them Steenie's tale.

'It's time we war up, wuman!' said David.

'Ay,' returned his wife, 'but Kirsty canna bide for 's. Ye maun be aff,
lassie! Tak a wee whusky wi' ye; but min' it's no that safe wi' frozen
fowk. Het milk's the best thing. Tak a drappie o' that wi' ye. I s' be
efter ye wi' mair. And dinna forget a piece to uphaud ye as ye gang;
it'll be ill fechtin the win'. Dinna lat Steenie gang back wi' ye; he
canna be fit. Sen' him to me, and I'll persuaud him.--Dauvid, man,
ye'll hae to saiddle and ride; the doctor maun gang wi' ye straught to
Steenie's hoose.'

'Lat me up,' said David, making a motion to free himself of the
bedclothes.

Kirsty went, and got some milk to make it hot. But when she reached the
kitchen, Steenie was not there, and the fire, which he had tried to
wake up, was all but black. The house-door was open, and the snow
drifting in. Steenie was gone into the storm again! She hurriedly
poured the milk into a small bottle, and thrust it into her bosom to
grow warm as she went. Then she lighted a lantern, chiefly that Steenie
might catch sight of it, and set out.

She started running, certain, she thought, to overtake him. The wind
was up again, but it was almost behind her, and the night was not
absolutely dark, for the moon was somewhere. She was far stronger than
Steenie, and could walk faster, but, keen as was her outlook on all
sides, for the snow was not falling too thick to let her see a little
way through it, she was at length near the top of the Horn without
having caught a glimpse of him. Had he dropped on the way? Had she in
her haste left him after all in the house? She might have passed him;
that was easy to do. One thing she was sure of--he could not have got
to his house before her!

As she drew near the door she heard a short howl, and knew it for
Snootie's. Perhaps Phemy had revived! But no! it was a desolate,
forsaken cry! The next moment came a glad bark: was it the footstep of
Kirsty it greeted, or the soul of Phemy?

With steady hand, and heart prepared, she opened the door and went in.
The dog came bounding to her: either he counted himself relieved, or
could bear it no longer. He cringed at her feet; he leaped upon her; he
saw in her his saviour from the terrible silence and cold and
motionlessness. Then he stood still before her, looking up to her, and
wagging his tail, but his face said plainly: _It is there_!

Kirsty hesitated a moment; a weary sense of uselessness had overtaken
her, and she shrank from encountering the unchanging and unchangeable;
but she cast off the oppression, and followed the dog to the bedside.
He jumped up, and lay down where his master had placed him, as if to
say he knew his duty, had been lying there all the time, and had only
got up the moment she came. It was the one warm spot in all the woollen
pile; the feet beneath it were cold as the snow outside, and the lovely
form lay motionless as a thing that would never move again. Kirsty
lifted the blanket: there was Phemy's face, blind with the white death!
It did not look at her, did not recognise her: Phemy was there and not
there! Phemy was far away! Phemy could not move from where she lay!

Hopeless, Kirsty yet tried her best to wake her from her snow-sleep,
shrinking from nothing, except for the despair of it. But long ere she
gave up the useless task, she was thinking far more about Steenie than
Phemy.

He did not come! 'He must be safe with his mother!' she kept saying in
her heart; but she could not reassure herself. The forsaken fire, the
open door haunted her. She would succeed for a moment or two in
quieting her fears, calling them foolish; the next they would rush upon
her like a cataract, and almost overwhelm her. While she was busy with
the dead, he might be slowly sinking into the sleep from which she
could not wake Phemy!

She laid the cold snow-captive straight, and left her to sleep on.
Then, calling the dog, she left the hut, in the hope of meeting her
mother, and learning that Steenie was at home.

Now and then, while at her sad task, she had been reminded of the wind
by its hollow roaring all about the hill, but not until she opened the
door had she any notion how the snow was falling; neither until she
left the hollow for the bare hill-side did she realize how the wind was
raging. Then indeed the world looked dangerous! If Steenie was out, if
her mother had started, they were lost! She would have gone back into
the hut with the dead, but that she might get home in time to prevent
her mother from setting out, or might meet her on the way. At the same
time the tempest between her and her home looked but a little less
terrible to her than a sea breaking on a rocky shore.

CHAPTER XXIV

HOW KIRSTY FARED

It was quite dark, and round her swept as it were a whirlpool of snow.
The swift fakes struck at her eyes and ears like a swarm of vicious
flies. In such a wind, the blows of the soft thin snow, beating upon
her face, now from one quarter, now from another, were enough to
bewilder even a strong woman like Kirsty. They were like hail to a
horse. After trying for a while to force her way, she suddenly became
aware of utter ignorance as to the direction in which she was going,
and, for the first time in her life, a fell terror possessed her--not
for herself, but for Steenie and her father and mother. To herself,
Kirsty was nobody, but she belonged to David and Marion Barclay, and
what were they and Steenie to do without her! They would go on looking
for her till they too died, and were buried yards deep in the snow!

She kept struggling on, her head bent, and her body leaning forward,
forcing herself against, it hardly seemed through, the snow-filled
wind--but whither? It was only by the feel of the earth under her feet,
that she could tell, and at times she was by no means sure, whether she
was going up or down hill. She kept on and on, almost hopeless of
getting anywhere, certain of nothing but that, if once she sat down,
she would never rise again. Fatigue that must not yield, and the
in-roads of the cold sleep, at length affected her brain, and her
imagination began to take its own way with her. She thought herself
condemned to one of those awful dust-towers, for she had read Prideaux,
specially devilish invention of the Persians, in which by the constant
stirring of the dust so that it filled the air, the lungs of the
culprit were at length absolutely choked up. Dead of the dust, she
revived to the snow: it was fearfully white, for it was all dead faces;
she crushed and waded through those that fell, while multitudes came
whirling upon her from all sides. Gladly would she have thrown herself
down among them, but she must walk, walk on for ever!

All the time, she felt in her dim suffering as if not she but those at
home suffered: she had deserted them in trouble, and do what she might
she would never get back to them! She could, she thought, if she but
put forth the needful energy, but the last self-exhaustive effort never
would come!

Where was the dog? He had left her! he was nowhere near her! She tried
to call him, but the storm choked every sound in her very throat. He
would never have left her to save himself! He who makes the dogs must
be at least as faithful as they! So she was not left comfortless!

Then she heard, or thought she heard the church-bell, and that may have
had something to do with the strange dream out of which she came
gradually to herself.

CHAPTER XXV

KIRSTY'S DREAM

Her dream was this:--

She sat at the communion-table in her own parish-church, with many
others, none of whom she knew. A man with piercing eyes went along the
table, examining the faces of all to see if they were fit to partake.
When he came to Kirsty, he looked at her for a moment sharply, then
said, 'That woman is dead. She has been in the snow all night. Lay her
in the vault under the church.' She rose to go because she was dead,
and hands were laid upon her to guide her as she went. They brought her
out of the church into the snow and wind, and turned away to leave her.
But she remonstrated: 'The man with the eyes,' she said, 'gave the
order that I should be taken to the vault of the church!'--'Very well,'
answered a voice, 'there is the vault! creep into it.' She saw an
opening in the ground, at the foot of the wall of the church, and
getting down on her hands and knees, crept through it, and with
difficulty got into the vault. There all was still. She heard the wind
raving, but it sounded afar off. Who had guided her thither? One of
Steenie's storm-angels, or the Shepherd of the sheep? It was all one,
for the storm-angels were his sheep-dogs! She had been bewildered by
the terrible beating of the snow-wind, but her own wandering was
another's guiding! Beyond the turmoil of life and unutterably glad, she
fell asleep, and the dream left her. In a little while, however, it
came again.

She was lying, she thought, on the stone-floor of the church-vault, and
wondered whether the examiner, notwithstanding the shining of his eyes,
might not have made a mistake: perhaps she was not so very dead!
Perhaps she was not quite unfit to eat of the bread of life after all!
She moved herself a little; then tried to rise, but failed; tried again
and again, and at last succeeded. All was dark around her, but
something seemed present that was known to her--whether man, or woman,
or beast, or thing, she could not tell. At last she recognised it; it
was a familiar odour, a peculiar smell, of the kind we call earthy:--it
was the air of her own earth-house, in days that seemed far away!
Perhaps she was in it now! Then her box of matches might be there too!
She felt about and found it. With trembling hands she struck one, and
proceeded to light her lamp.

It burned up. Something seized her by the heart.

A little farther in, stretched on the floor, lay a human form on its
face. She knew at once that it was Steenie's. The feet were toward her,
and between her and them a pair of shoes: he was dead!--he had got rid
of his feet!--he was gone after Phemy--gone to the bonny man! She
knelt, and turned the body over. Her heart was like a stone. She raised
his head on her arm: it was plain he was dead. A small stream of blood
had flowed from his mouth, and made a little pool, not yet quite
frozen. Kirsty's heart seemed about to break from her bosom to go after
him; then the eternal seemed to descend upon her like a waking sleep, a
clear consciousness of peace. It was for a moment as if she saw the
Father at the heart of the universe, with all his children about his
knees: her pain and sorrow and weakness were gone; she wept glad tears
over the brother called so soon from the nursery to the great presence
chamber. 'Eh, bonny man!' she cried; 'is 't possible to expec ower
muckle frae your father and mine!'

She sat down beside what was left of Steenie, and ate of the oatcake,
and drink of the milk she had carried forgotten until now.

'I won'er what God 'll du wi' the twa!' she said to herself. 'Gien _I_
lo'ed them baith as I did, _he_ lo'es them better! _I_ wud hae dee'd
for them; _he_ did!'

She rose and went out.

Light had come at last, but too dim to be more than gray. The world was
one large white sepulchre in which the earth lay dead. Warmth and hope
and spring seemed gone for ever. But God was alive; his hearth-fire
burned; therefore death was nowhere! She knew it in her own soul, for
the Father was there, and she knew that in his soul were all the loved.
The wind had ceased, but the snow was still falling, here and there a
flake. A faint blueness filled the air, and was colder than the white.
Whether the day was at hand or the night, she could not distinguish.
The church bell began to ring, sounding from far away through the
silence: what mountains of snow must yet tower unfallen in the heavens,
when it was nearly noon, and still so dark! But Steenie was out of the
snow--that was well! Or perhaps he was beside her in it, only he could
leave it when he would! Surely anyhow Phemy must be with him! She could
not be left all alone and she so silly! Steenie would have her to
teach! His trouble must have gone the moment he died, but Phemy would
have to find out what a goose she was! She would be very miserable, and
would want Steenie! Kirsty's thoughts cut their own channels: she was
as far ahead of her church as the woman of Samaria was ahead of the
high priest at Jerusalem.

Thus thinking, thinking, she kept on walking through the snow to weep
on her mother's bosom. Suddenly she remembered, and stood still: her
mother was going to follow her to Steenie's house! She too must be dead
in the snow!--Well, let Heaven take all! They were born to die, and it
was her turn now to follow her mother! She started again for home, and
at length drew near the house.

It was more like a tomb than a house. The door looked as if no one had
gone in there or out for ages. Had she slept in the snow like the seven
sleepers in the cave? Were the need and the use of houses and doors
long over? Or was she a ghost come to have one look more at her old
home in a long dead world? Perhaps her father and mother might have
come back with like purpose, and she would see and speak to them! Or
was she, alas! only in a dream, in which the dead would not speak to
her? But God was not dead, and while God lived she was not alone even
in a dream!

A dark bundle lay on the door-step: it was Snootie. He had been
scratching and whining until despair came upon him, and he lay down to
die.

She lifted the latch, stepped over the dog, and entered. The peat-fire
was smouldering low on tho hearth. She sat down and closed her eyes.
When she opened them, there lay Snootie, stretched out before the fire!
She rose and shut the door, fed and roused the fire, and brought the
dog some milk, which he lapped up eagerly.

Not a sound was in the house. She went all over it. Father nor mother
was there. It was Sunday, and all the men were away. A cow lowed, and
in her heart Kirsty blessed her: she was a live creature! She would go
and milk her!

CHAPTER XXVI

HOW DAVID FARED

David Barclay got up the moment Kirsty was out of the room, dressed
himself in haste, swallowed a glass of whisky, saddled the gray mare,
gave her a feed of oats, which she ate the faster that she felt the
saddle, and set out for Tiltowie to get the doctor. Threatening as the
weather was, he was well on the road before the wind became so full of
snow as to cause him any anxiety, either for those on the hill or for
himself. But after the first moment of anxiety, a very few minutes
convinced him that a battle with the elements was at hand more
dangerous than he had ever had to fight with armed men. For some
distance the road was safe enough as yet, for the storm had not had
time to heap up the snow between the bordering hills; but by and by he
must come out upon a large track recovered by slow degrees and great
labour from the bog, and be exposed to the full force of the now
furious wind, where in many places it would be far easier to wander off
than to stay upon a road level with the fields, and not even bounded by
a ditch the size of a wheel-track. When he reached the open, therefore,
he was compelled to go at a footpace through the thick, blinding,
bewildering tempest-driven snow; and was not surprised when, in spite
of all his caution, he found, by the sudden sinking and withdrawing of
one of his mare's legs with a squelching noise, that he had got astray
upon the bog, nor knew any more in what direction the town or other
abode of humanity lay. The only thing he did know was the side of the
road to which he had turned; and that he knew only by the ground into
which he had got: no step farther must in that direction be attempted.
His mare seemed to know this as well as himself, for when she had
pulled her leg out, she drew back a pace, and stood; whereupon David
cast a knot on the reins, threw them on her neck, and told her to go
where she pleased. She turned half round and started at once, feeling
her way at first very carefully. Then she walked slowly on, with her
head hanging low. Again and again she stopped and snuffed, diverged a
little, and went on.

The wind was packed rather than charged with snow. Men said there never
was a wind of the strength with so much snow in it. David began to
despair of ever finding the road again, and naturally in such strait
thought how much worse would Kirsty and Steenie be faring on the open
hill-side. His wife, he knew, could not have started before the storm
rose to tempest, and would delay her departure. Then came the
reflection, how little at any time could a father do for the wellbeing
of his children! The fact of their being children implied their need of
an all-powerful father: must there not then be such a father? Therewith
the truth dawned upon him, that first of truths, which all his
church-going and Bible-reading had hitherto failed to disclose, that,
for life to be a good thing and worth living, a man must be the child
of a perfect father, and know him. In his terrible perturbation about
his children, he lifted up his heart--not to the Governor of the world;
not to the God of Abraham or Moses; not in the least to the God of the
Kirk; least of all to the God of the Shorter Catechism; but to the
faithful creator and Father of David Barclay. The aching soul which
none but a perfect father could have created capable of deploring its
own fatherly imperfection, cried out to the father of fathers on behalf
of his children, and as he cried, a peace came stealing over him such
as he had never before felt.

Then he knew that his mare had been for some time on hard ground, and
was going with purpose in her gentle trot. In five minutes more, he saw
the glimmer of a light through the snow. Near as it was, or he could
not have seen it, he failed repeatedly in finding his way to it. The
mare at length fell over a stone wall out of sight in the snow, and
when they got up they found themselves in a little garden at the end of
a farmhouse. Not, however, until the farmer came to the door, wondering
who on such a morning could be their visitor, did he know to what farm
the mare had brought him. Weary, and well aware that no doctor in his
senses would set out for the top of the Horn in such a tempest of black
and white, he gratefully accepted the shelter and refreshment of which
his mare and he stood by this time in much need, and waited for a lull
in the storm.

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