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'I am taking you simply as the sample Englishman, not as Mr Glascock,
who helped me and my sister over the mountains. Such of us as have to
meet in society may agree to be very courteous; but courtesy and
cordiality are not only not the same, but they are incompatible.'

'Why so?'

'Courtesy is an effort, and cordiality is free. I must be allowed to
contradict the friend that I love; but I assent too often falsely to
what is said to me by a passing acquaintance. In spite of what the
Scripture says, I think it is one of the greatest privileges of a
brother that he may call his brother a fool.'

'Shall you desire to call your husband a fool?'

'My husband!'

'He will, I suppose, be at least as dear to you as a brother?'

'I never had a brother.'

'Your sister, then! It is the same, I suppose?'

'If I were to have a husband, I hope he would be the dearest to me of
all. Unless he were so, he certainly would not be my husband. But
between a man and his wife there does not spring up that playful,
violent intimacy admitting of all liberties, which comes from early
nursery associations; and, then, there is the difference of sex.'

'I should not like my wife to call me a fool,' he said.

'I hope she may never have occasion to do so, Mr Glascock. Marry an
English wife in your own class as, of course, you will and then you
will be safe.'

'But I have set my heart fast on marrying an American wife,' he said.

'Then I can't tell what may befall you. It's like enough, if you do
that, that you may be called by some name you will think hard to bear.
But you'll think better of it. Like should pair with like, Mr Glascock.
If you were to marry one of our young women, you would lose in dignity
as much as she would lose in comfort.' Then they parted, and she went
off to say farewell to other guests. The manner in which she had
answered what he had said to her had certainly been of a nature to stop
any further speech of the same kind. Had she been gentle with him, then
he would certainly have told her that she was the American woman whom
he desired to take with him to his home in England.

CHAPTER LVII - DOROTHY'S FATE

Towards the end of February Sir Peter Mancrudy declared Miss Stanbury
to be out of danger, and Mr Martin began to be sprightly on the
subject, taking to himself no inconsiderable share of the praise
accruing to the medical faculty in Exeter generally for the saving of a
life so valuable to the city. 'Yes, Mr Burgess,' Sir Peter said to old
Barty of the bank, 'our friend will get over it this time, and without
any serious damage to her constitution, if she will only take care of
herself.' Barty made some inaudible grunt, intended to indicate his own
indifference on the subject, and expressed his opinion to the chief
clerk that old Jemima Wideawake as he was pleased to call her was one
of those tough customers who would never die. 'It would be nothing to
us, Mr Barty, one way or the other,' said the clerk; to which Barty
Burgess assented with another grunt.

Camilla French declared that she was delighted to hear the news. At
this time there had been some sort of a reconciliation between her and
her lover. Mrs French had extracted from him a promise that he would
not go to Natal; and Camilla had commenced the preparations for her
wedding. His visits to Heavitree were as few and far between as he
could make them with any regard to decency; but the 31st of March was
coming on quickly, and as he was to be made a possession of them for
ever, it was considered to be safe and well to allow him some liberty
in his present condition. 'My dear, if they are driven, there is no
knowing what they won't do,' Mrs French said to her daughter. Camilla
had submitted with compressed lips and a slight nod of her head. She
had worked very hard, but her day of reward was coming. It was
impossible not to perceive both for her and her mother that the
scantiness of Mr Gibson's attention to his future bride was cause of
some weak triumph to Arabella. She said that it was very odd that he
did not come and once added with a little sigh that he used to come in
former days, alluding to those happy days in which another love was
paramount. Camilla could not endure this with an equal mind. 'Bella,
dear,' she said, 'we know what all that means. He has made his choice,
and if I am satisfied with what he does now, surely you need not
grumble.' Miss Stanbury's illness had undoubtedly been a great source
of contentment to the family at Heavitree, as they had all been able to
argue that her impending demise was the natural consequence of her
great sin in the matter of Dorothy's proposed marriage. When, however,
they heard from Mr Martin that she would certainly recover, that Sir
Peter's edict to that effect had gone forth, they were willing to
acknowledge that Providence, having so far punished the sinner, was
right in staying its hand and abstaining from the final blow. 'I'm sure
we are delighted,' said Mrs French, 'for though she has said cruel
things of us and so untrue too yet of course it is our duty to forgive
her. And we do forgive her.'

Dorothy had written three or four notes to Brooke since his departure,
which contained simple bulletins of her aunt's health. She always began
her letters with 'My dear Mr Burgess,' and ended them with 'yours
truly.' She never made any allusion to Brooke's declaration of love, or
gave the slightest sign in her letters to shew that she even remembered
it. At last she wrote to say that her aunt was convalescent; and, in
making this announcement, she allowed herself some enthusiasm of
expression. She was so happy, and was so sure that Mr Burgess would be
equally so! And her aunt had asked after her 'dear Brooke,' expressing
her great satisfaction with him, in that he had come down to see her
when she had been almost too ill to see anyone. In answer to this there
came to her a real love-letter from Brooke Burgess. It was the first
occasion on which he had written to her. The little bulletins had
demanded no replies, and had received none. Perhaps there had been a
shade of disappointment on Dorothy's side, in that she had written
thrice, and had been made rich with no word in return. But, although
her heart had palpitated on hearing the postman's knock, and had
palpitated in vain, she had told herself that it was all as it should
be. She wrote to him, because she possessed information which it was
necessary that she should communicate. He did not write to her, because
there was nothing for him to tell. Then had come the love-letter, and
in the love-letter there was an imperative demand for a reply.

What was she to do? To have recourse to Priscilla for advice was her
first idea; but she herself believed that she owed a debt of gratitude
to her aunt, which Priscilla would not take into account--the
existence of which Priscilla would by no means admit. She knew
Priscilla's mind in this matter, and was sure that Priscilla's advice,
whatever it might be, would be given without any regard to her aunt's
views. And then Dorothy was altogether ignorant of her aunt's views.
Her aunt had been very anxious that she should marry Mr Gibson, but had
clearly never admitted into her mind the idea that she might possibly
marry Brooke Burgess; and it seemed to her that she herself would be
dishonest, both to her aunt and to her lover, if she were to bind this
man to herself without her aunt's knowledge. He was to be her aunt's
heir, and she was maintained by her aunt's liberality! Thinking of all
this, she at last resolved that she would take the bull by the horns,
and tell her aunt. She felt that the task would be one almost beyond
her strength. Thrice she went into her aunt's room, intending to make a
clean breast; Thrice her courage failed her, and she left the room with
her tale untold, excusing herself on various pretexts. Her aunt had
seemed to be not quite so well, or had declared herself to be tired, or
had been a little cross or else Martha had come in at the nick of time.
But there was Brooke Burgess's letter unanswered a letter that was read
night and morning, and which was never for an instant out of her mind.
He had demanded a reply, and he had a right at least to that. The
letter had been with her for four entire days before she had ventured
to speak to her aunt on the subject.

On the first of March Miss Stanbury came out of her bed-room for the
first time. Dorothy, on the previous day, had decided on postponing her
communication for this occasion; but, when she found herself sitting in
the little sitting-room up stairs close at her aunt's elbow, and
perceived the signs of weakness which the new move had made
conspicuous, and heard the invalid declare that the little journey had
been almost too much for her, her heart misgave her. She ought to have
told her tale while her aunt was still in bed. But presently there came
a question, which put her into such a flutter that she was for the time
devoid of all resolution. 'Has Brooke written?' said Miss Stanbury.

'Yes aunt; he has written.'

'And what did he say?' Dorothy was struck quite dumb. 'Is there
anything wrong?' And now, as Miss Stanbury asked the question, she
seemed herself to have forgotten that she had two minutes before
declared herself to be almost too feeble to speak. 'I'm sure there is
something wrong. What is it? I will know'

'There is nothing wrong, Aunt Stanbury'

'Where is the letter? Let me see it.'

'I mean there is nothing wrong about him.'

'What is it, then?'

'He is quite well, Aunt Stanbury.'

'Shew me the letter. I will see the letter. I know that there is
something the matter. Do you mean to say you won't shew me Brooke's
letter?'

There was a moment's pause before Dorothy answered. 'I will shew you
his letter though I am sure he didn't mean that I should shew it to
anyone.'

'He hasn't written evil of me?'

'No; no; no. He would sooner cut his hand off than say a word bad of
you. He never says or writes anything bad of anybody. But Oh, aunt;
I'll tell you everything. I should have told you before, only that you
were ill.'

Then Miss Stanbury was frightened. 'What is it?' she said hoarsely,
clasping the arms of the great chair, each with a thin, shrivelled
hand.

'Aunt Stanbury, Brooke Brooke wants me to be his wife!'

'What!'

'You cannot be more surprised than I have been, Aunt Stanbury; and
there has been no fault of mine.'

'I don't believe it,' said the old woman.

'Now you may read the letter,' said Dorothy, standing up. She was quite
prepared to be obedient, but she felt that her aunt's manner of
receiving the information was almost an insult.

'He must be a fool,' said Miss Stanbury.

This was hard to hear, and the colour went and came rapidly across
Dorothy's cheeks as she gave herself a few moments to prepare an
answer. She already perceived that her aunt would be altogether adverse
to the marriage, and that therefore the marriage could never take
place. She had never for a moment allowed herself to think otherwise,
but, nevertheless, the blow was heavy on her. We all know how
constantly hope and expectation will rise high within our own bosoms in
opposition to our own judgment how we become sanguine in regard to
events which we almost know can never come to pass. So it had been with
Dorothy. Her heart had been almost in a flutter of happiness since she
had had Brooke's letter in her possession, and yet she never ceased to
declare to herself her own conviction that that letter could lead to no
good result. In regard to her own wishes on the subject she had never
asked herself a single question. As it had been quite beyond her power
to bring herself to endure the idea of marrying Mr Gibson, so it had
been quite impossible to her not to long to be Brooke's wife from the
moment in which a suggestion to that effect had fallen from his lips.
This was a state of things so certain, so much a matter of course,
that, though she had not spoken a word to him in which she owned her
love, she had never for a moment doubted that he knew the truth and
that everybody else concerned would know it too. But she did not
suppose that her wishes would go for anything with her aunt. Brooke
Burgess was to become a rich man as her aunt's heir, and her aunt would
of course have her own ideas about Brooke's advancement in life. She
was quite prepared to submit without quarrelling when her aunt should
tell her that the idea must not be entertained. But the order might be
given, the prohibition might be pronounced, without an insult to her
own feelings as a woman. 'He must he a fool,' Miss Stan-bury had said,
and Dorothy took time to collect her thoughts before she would reply.
In the meantime her aunt finished the reading of the letter.

'He may be foolish in this,' Dorothy said; 'but I don't think you
should call him a fool.'

'I shall call him what I please. I suppose this was going on at the
time when you refused Mr Gibson.'

'Nothing was going on. Nothing has gone on at all,' said Dorothy, with
as much indignation as she was able to assume.

'How can you tell me that? That is an untruth.'

'It is not an untruth,' said Dorothy, almost sobbing, but driven at the
same time to much anger.

'Do you mean to say that this is the first you ever heard of it?' And
she held out the letter, shaking it in her thin hand.

'I have never said so, Aunt Stanbury.'

'Yes, you did.'

'I said that nothing was going on, when Mr Gibson was .If you choose
to suspect me, Aunt Stanbury, I'll go away. I won't stay here if you
suspect me. When Brooke spoke to me, I told him you wouldn't like it.'

'Of course I don't like it.' But she gave no reason why she did not
like it.

'And there was nothing more till this letter came. I couldn't help his
writing to me. It wasn't my fault.'

'Psha!'

'If you are angry, I am very sorry. But you haven't a right to be
angry.'

'Go on, Dorothy; go on. I'm so weak that I can hardly stir myself; it's
the first moment that I've been out of my bed for weeks and of course
you can say what you please. I know what it will be. I shall have to
take to my bed again, and then in a very little time you can both make
fools of yourselves just as you like.'

This was an argument against which Dorothy of course found it to be
quite impossible to make continued combat. She could only shuffle her
letter back into her pocket, and be, if possible, more assiduous than
ever in her attentions to the invalid. She knew that she had been
treated most unjustly, and there would be a question to be answered as
soon as her aunt should be well as to the possibility of her remaining
in the Close subject to such injustice; but let her aunt say what she
might, or do what she might, Dorothy could not leave her for the
present. Miss Stanbury sat for a considerable time quite motionless,
with her eyes closed, and did not stir or make signs of life till
Dorothy touched her arm, asking her whether she would not take some
broth which had been prepared for her. 'Where's Martha? Why does not
Martha come?' said Miss Stanbury. This was a hard blow, and from that
moment Dorothy believed that it would be expedient that she should
return to Nuncombe Putney. The broth, however, was taken, while Dorothy
sat by in silence. Only one word further was said that evening by Miss
Stanbury about Brooke and his love-affair. 'There must be nothing more
about this, Dorothy; remember that; nothing at all. I won't have it.'
Dorothy made no reply. Brooke's letter was in her pocket, and it should
be answered that night. On the following day she would let her aunt
know what she had said to Brooke. Her aunt should not see the letter,
but should be made acquainted with its purport in reference to Brooke's
proposal of marriage.

'I won't have it!' That had been her aunt's command. What right had her
aunt to give any command upon the matter? Then crossed Dorothy's mind,
as she thought of this, a glimmering of an idea that no one can be
entitled to issue commands who cannot enforce obedience. If Brooke and
she chose to become man and wife by mutual consent, how could her aunt
prohibit the marriage? Then there followed another idea, that commands
are enforced by the threatening and, if necessary, by the enforcement
of penalties. Her aunt had within her hand no penalty of which Dorothy
was afraid on her own behalf; but she had the power of inflicting a
terrible punishment on Brooke Burgess. Now Dorothy conceived that she
herself would be the meanest creature alive if she were actuated by
fears as to money in her acceptance or rejection of a man whom she
loved as she did Brooke Burgess. Brooke had an income of his own which
seemed to her to be ample for all purposes. But that which would have
been sordid in her, did not seem to her to have any stain of sordidness
for him. He was a man, and was bound to be rich if he could. And,
moreover, what had she to offer in herself such a poor thing as was she
to make compensation to him for the loss of fortune? Her aunt could
inflict this penalty, and therefore the power was hers, and the power
must be obeyed. She would write to Brooke in a manner that should
convey to him her firm decision.

But not the less on that account would she let her aunt know that she
thought herself to have been ill-used. It was an insult to her, a most
ill-natured insult that telling her that Brooke had been a fool for
loving her. And then that accusation against her of having been false,
of having given one reason for refusing Mr Gibson, while there was
another reason in her heart of having been cunning and then untrue, was
not to be endured. What would her aunt think of her if she were to bear
such allegations without indignant protest? She would write her letter,
and speak her mind to her aunt as soon as her aunt should be well
enough to hear it.

As she had resolved, she wrote her letter that night before she went to
bed. She wrote it with floods of tears, and a bitterness of heart which
almost conquered her. She too had heard of love, and had been taught to
feel that the success or failure of a woman's life depended upon that
whether she did, or whether she did not, by such gifts as God might
have given to her, attract to herself some man strong enough, and good
enough, and loving enough to make straight for her her paths, to bear
for her her burdens, to be the father of her children, the staff on
which she might lean, and the wall against which she might grow,
feeling the sunshine, and sheltered from the wind. She had ever
estimated her own value so lowly as to have told herself often that
such success could never come in her way. From her earliest years she
had regarded herself as outside the pale within which such joys are to
be found. She had so strictly taught herself to look forward to a blank
existence, that she had learned to do so without active misery. But not
the less did she know where happiness lay; and when the good thing came
almost within her reach, when it seemed that God had given her gifts
which might have sufficed, when a man had sought her hand whose nature
was such that she could have leaned on him with a true worship, could
have grown against him as against a wall with perfect confidence, could
have lain with her head upon his bosom, and have felt that of all spots
that in the world was the most fitting for her when this was all but
grasped, and must yet be abandoned, there came upon her spirit an agony
so bitter that she had not before known how great might be the depth of
human disappointment. But the letter was at last written, and when
finished was as follows:

'The Close, Exeter, March 1, 186-.

DEAR BROOKE.'

There had been many doubts about this; but at last they were conquered,
and the name was written.

'I have shewn your letter to my aunt, as I am sure you will think was
best. I should have answered it before, only that I thought that she
was not quite well enough to talk about it. She says, as I was sure she
would, that what you propose is quite out of the question. I am aware
that I am bound to obey her; and as I think that you also ought to do
so, I shall think no more of what you have said to me and have written.
It is quite impossible now, even if it might have been possible under
other circumstances. I shall always remember your great kindness to me.
Perhaps I ought to say that I am very grateful for the compliment you
have paid me. I shall think of you always till I die.

Believe me to be,

Your very sincere friend,

DOROTHY STANBURY.'

The next day Miss Stanbury again came out of her room, and on the third
day she was manifestly becoming stronger. Dorothy had as yet not spoken
of her letter, but was prepared to do so as soon as she thought that a
fitting opportunity had come. She had a word or two to say for herself;
but she must not again subject herself to being told that she was
taking her will of her aunt because her aunt was too ill to defend
herself. But on the third day Miss Stanbury herself asked the question.
'Have you written anything to Brooke?' she asked.

'I have answered his letter, Aunt Stanbury.'

'And what have you said to him?'

'I have told him that you disapproved of it, and that nothing more must
be said about it.'

'Yes of course you made me out to be an ogre.'

'I don't know what you mean by that, aunt. I am sure that I told him
the truth.'

'May I see the letter?'

'It has gone.'

'But you have kept a copy,' said Miss Stanbury.

'Yes; I have got a copy,' replied Dorothy; 'but I would rather not shew
it. I told him just what I tell you.'

'Dorothy, it is not at all becoming that you should have a
correspondence with any young man of such a nature that you should be
ashamed to shew it to your aunt.'

'I am not ashamed of anything,' said Dorothy sturdily.

'I don't know what young women in these days have come to,' continued
Miss Stanbury.

'There is no respect, no subjection, no obedience, and too often no
modesty.'

'Does that mean me, Aunt Stanbury?' asked Dorothy.

'To tell you the truth, Dorothy, I don't think you ought to have been
receiving love-letters from Brooke Burgess when I was lying ill in bed.
I didn't expect it of you. I tell you fairly that I didn't expect it of
you.'

Then Dorothy spoke out her mind. 'As you think that, Aunt Stanbury, I
had better go away. And if you please I will when you are well enough
to spare me.'

'Pray don't think of me at all,' said her aunt.

'And as for love-letters Mr Burgess has written to me once. I don't
think that there can be anything immodest in opening a letter when it
comes by the post. And as soon as I had it I determined to shew it to
you. As for what happened before, when Mr Burgess spoke to me, which
was long, long after all that about Mr Gibson was over, I told him that
it couldn't be so; and I thought there would be no more about it. You
were so ill that I could not tell you. Now you know it all.'

'I have not seen your letter to him.'

'I shall never shew it to anybody. But you have said things, Aunt
Stanbury, that are very cruel.'

'Of course! Everything I say is wrong.'

'You have told me that I was telling untruths, and you have called me
immodest. That is a terrible word.'

'You shouldn't deserve it then.'

'I never have deserved it, and I won't bear it. No; I won't. If Hugh
heard me called that word, I believe he'd tear the house down.'

'Hugh, indeed! He's to be brought in between us is he?'

'He's my brother, and of course I'm obliged to think of him. And if you
please, I'll go home as soon as you are well enough to spare me.'

Quickly after this there were many letters coming and going between the
house in the Close and the ladies at Nuncombe Putney, and Hugh
Stanbury, and Brooke Burgess. The correspondent of Brooke Burgess was
of course Miss Stanbury herself. The letters to Hugh and to Nuncombe
Putney were written by Dorothy. Of the former we need be told nothing
at the present moment; but the upshot of all poor Dolly's letters was,
that on the tenth of March she was to return home to Nuncombe Putney,
share once more her sister's bed and mother's poverty, and abandon the
comforts of the Close. Before this became a definite arrangement Miss
Stanbury had given way in a certain small degree. She had acknowledged
that Dorothy had intended no harm. But this was not enough for Dorothy,
who was conscious of no harm either done or intended. She did not
specify her terms, or require specifically that her aunt should make
apology for that word, immodest, or at least withdraw it; but she
resolved that she would go unless it was most absolutely declared to
have been applied to her without the slightest reason. She felt,
moreover, that her aunt's house ought to be open to Brooke Burgess, and
that it could not be open to them both. And so she went having resided
under her aunt's roof between nine and ten months.

'Good-bye, Aunt Stanbury,' said Dorothy, kissing her aunt, with a tear
in her eye and a sob in her throat.

'Good-bye, my dear, good-bye.' And Miss Stanbury, as she pressed her
niece's hand, left in it a bank-note.